I was disappointed to find that some of my books are gone. I don't mind if things didn't go my way or if being used at disposal. But what would upset me if my books are gone. I bought them with my own money, and it would make me sad if I can't read them again. It's because I find pleasure in reading books, my books. I intend to start a collection. Maybe one day I may open up a book store.
I find that in across our journeys, complaints are not necessary and what serves the best are results. It's good to keep reminded about what we've gone through because that's what makes us. But what about the time, time can't be used simply for meetings or else there is no purpose. And purpose comes with values. I hate it sometimes, how people can just rely others on being punctual when they themselves are not say for example.
I haven't been writing in this blog for a long time that's because I find there is no purpose in writing with no input. At the moment, what I can say is that I'm thinking of pursuing to my PhD. But I can't do that without fund. Which is why I'm trying to convince my ex-supervisor to give me a grant and again to be a supervisor for this project. There was a project report written by him stating how I defended my Master and being the only first orangutan ecologist in Sabah. That sure does felt like something. And I'm a lady. But I would've not done it without my abang-abang. They guided me in the forest and during the first month of orientation or should I say volunteerism, they were the ones who taught me the disciplines of the forest.
And here goes the study what project do I want to cover this time. But as usual, I will always get a no answer from my friend. Just like how I would like to make a book, or publish some coffee books. Nevermind. Maybe I can do another study just pray that it wouldn't be an ordeal this time. And besides I don't think I'm not that physically fit anymore.
The question lies on habitat requirement. And many scientists are praying to find the difference between suitability of habitats for orangutans. Although deeply, I don't think this is the issue. The main highlight should be, what determines density then link these habitats by biogeographical region. You preserve genetic diversity at the same time since orangutans live in an epigamic society and they have a stable social organisation.
I was wondering what to make between differences of densities in different habitats. This would led me to synthesising habitat requirement and link them to metabolism and hence dietry fashion. I have done this through my Master's where I've used Einstein's physical law of principles. With this knowledge we would have come about in knowing what determines the physical shape of an animal following the habitat in where it occurs. And hence bringing the importance into linking habitats.
My mother has been a solitary individual after coming back from Saudi. She often watch the TV alone, or doze herself to sleep due to tiresome. Or play with the baby. It makes me feel sad to see her like this. I wish to play with her but there seems to be not much of an activity. I need to train myself to wake up early so that we can go shopping or do something else. But I guess it's just better to laze around. I wished she could stay here longer, I feel very lonely. Which makes me question another thing, is it really worth doing this PhD. When you have all the time you need to sleep. I think it's important to share knowledge and get to know people more. But it would be worth it if they just don't simply ask. It's about give and take. Now that's a privilege.
What inspires me most is freedom of speech. But I hate media sensationalism and rhetorical. Which is why I hate watching TV programmes these days. Sweets are not good for the teeth, but why take them anyway. No wonder, sugar are getting expensive these days. Lol! I remember good movies like Contact or something that gives lessons. Not flattering. In fact, I find many resemblance between my thesis and the movie Contact. Well in some way, call me crazy if you want. I found how to construct the model but the movie simply just give a tell-tale like an adventure. It's very motivating.
I would like to publish a journal one day. In fact, it was what I wanted to do when doing my Master. I found many interesting results but they were not put into good use only as secondary inputs or something that had led to another discovery which is not quite optimistic. In the sense that it had led other people into saying the same thing. But what the real thing is, I have the data and I have the results. If it wasn't because an author who I would name anonymously, I would've not come into my synthesis about orangutan distribution and the implication of the world in nature. Which is why I have to thank him. He's a scientist in Indonesia. Well, I told him for the fact but he took no credit for him. Was he being just too modest, or was he simply didn't understood what privilege I took into conceiting this formula. I'm sure it's not the formula but how it applies.
Boyfriends had come and go. Friends either like you or they don't. But they leave us with intangible memories. Without them how far can we go. So I hope with this proposal, I am able to convince my superior boss into deciding to take me in for a PhD. Because I deserve it.
I simply love the rain, the jungle and the humidity. Nothing serves me best than have a palatial place for me to study like an eager explorer. But of course, with a good helping hand. Now the task is, to gather as much data possible in the quickest time. And in these days, to have internet access I wonder. Just hope Facebook won't be messing with me. Tee-hee..
The only problem now is trade. How do you create a line between trade and research. I was told that we needed to find a value. But then it turned out to be some kind like a business or a deal. Or a fiscal. Then, we ask a question what is that preservation. Have we simply lost our mind? It becomes more of a corporate deal or a network. Into deciding the market place, there comes a stature to fair trade. And then there comes to a question as free trade. Nothing comes easy, as getting something for free. Cheap luck! This will determine the equality of standards and levying. Which is why education not only serves the best priority but must be fair.
Now comes to the question of physical fitness. It continues to become my question.
I find that in across our journeys, complaints are not necessary and what serves the best are results. It's good to keep reminded about what we've gone through because that's what makes us. But what about the time, time can't be used simply for meetings or else there is no purpose. And purpose comes with values. I hate it sometimes, how people can just rely others on being punctual when they themselves are not say for example.
I haven't been writing in this blog for a long time that's because I find there is no purpose in writing with no input. At the moment, what I can say is that I'm thinking of pursuing to my PhD. But I can't do that without fund. Which is why I'm trying to convince my ex-supervisor to give me a grant and again to be a supervisor for this project. There was a project report written by him stating how I defended my Master and being the only first orangutan ecologist in Sabah. That sure does felt like something. And I'm a lady. But I would've not done it without my abang-abang. They guided me in the forest and during the first month of orientation or should I say volunteerism, they were the ones who taught me the disciplines of the forest.
And here goes the study what project do I want to cover this time. But as usual, I will always get a no answer from my friend. Just like how I would like to make a book, or publish some coffee books. Nevermind. Maybe I can do another study just pray that it wouldn't be an ordeal this time. And besides I don't think I'm not that physically fit anymore.
The question lies on habitat requirement. And many scientists are praying to find the difference between suitability of habitats for orangutans. Although deeply, I don't think this is the issue. The main highlight should be, what determines density then link these habitats by biogeographical region. You preserve genetic diversity at the same time since orangutans live in an epigamic society and they have a stable social organisation.
I was wondering what to make between differences of densities in different habitats. This would led me to synthesising habitat requirement and link them to metabolism and hence dietry fashion. I have done this through my Master's where I've used Einstein's physical law of principles. With this knowledge we would have come about in knowing what determines the physical shape of an animal following the habitat in where it occurs. And hence bringing the importance into linking habitats.
My mother has been a solitary individual after coming back from Saudi. She often watch the TV alone, or doze herself to sleep due to tiresome. Or play with the baby. It makes me feel sad to see her like this. I wish to play with her but there seems to be not much of an activity. I need to train myself to wake up early so that we can go shopping or do something else. But I guess it's just better to laze around. I wished she could stay here longer, I feel very lonely. Which makes me question another thing, is it really worth doing this PhD. When you have all the time you need to sleep. I think it's important to share knowledge and get to know people more. But it would be worth it if they just don't simply ask. It's about give and take. Now that's a privilege.
What inspires me most is freedom of speech. But I hate media sensationalism and rhetorical. Which is why I hate watching TV programmes these days. Sweets are not good for the teeth, but why take them anyway. No wonder, sugar are getting expensive these days. Lol! I remember good movies like Contact or something that gives lessons. Not flattering. In fact, I find many resemblance between my thesis and the movie Contact. Well in some way, call me crazy if you want. I found how to construct the model but the movie simply just give a tell-tale like an adventure. It's very motivating.
I would like to publish a journal one day. In fact, it was what I wanted to do when doing my Master. I found many interesting results but they were not put into good use only as secondary inputs or something that had led to another discovery which is not quite optimistic. In the sense that it had led other people into saying the same thing. But what the real thing is, I have the data and I have the results. If it wasn't because an author who I would name anonymously, I would've not come into my synthesis about orangutan distribution and the implication of the world in nature. Which is why I have to thank him. He's a scientist in Indonesia. Well, I told him for the fact but he took no credit for him. Was he being just too modest, or was he simply didn't understood what privilege I took into conceiting this formula. I'm sure it's not the formula but how it applies.
Boyfriends had come and go. Friends either like you or they don't. But they leave us with intangible memories. Without them how far can we go. So I hope with this proposal, I am able to convince my superior boss into deciding to take me in for a PhD. Because I deserve it.
I simply love the rain, the jungle and the humidity. Nothing serves me best than have a palatial place for me to study like an eager explorer. But of course, with a good helping hand. Now the task is, to gather as much data possible in the quickest time. And in these days, to have internet access I wonder. Just hope Facebook won't be messing with me. Tee-hee..
The only problem now is trade. How do you create a line between trade and research. I was told that we needed to find a value. But then it turned out to be some kind like a business or a deal. Or a fiscal. Then, we ask a question what is that preservation. Have we simply lost our mind? It becomes more of a corporate deal or a network. Into deciding the market place, there comes a stature to fair trade. And then there comes to a question as free trade. Nothing comes easy, as getting something for free. Cheap luck! This will determine the equality of standards and levying. Which is why education not only serves the best priority but must be fair.
Now comes to the question of physical fitness. It continues to become my question.
