Sunday, January 31, 2010

Kerbau

My mother asked me, what do you want from Saudi? Since she has lots to offer these days. I remember when I was at the hostel, and wanting to go down town after church. I checked the ATM machine and it was empty. I guess there was no more money at the moment. I was very hungry then suddenly a friend said, what ya wanna eat? Without shyness in my brows, well anything. So she bought me a burger. And then, while frumming on it greedily, she said Alhamdullilah kerana kamu saya kenyang (Praise be to God, for you I am fulfilled). She was very kind and got to me right when I need her. I thought to myself, when will this ordeal ever happen again?

 I have full aspirations on my mother. Maybe I can write a book about her. But my time with her is not fulfilled. I always wanted to be on her side, to play with her. It suddenly strikes to me how I want to braid her hair. But I knew she was as happy as she was, with her work that gives her pride. She's a nurse and there was one time that a labourer had no money and they seek help from her. She was a certified mid-wife and so she delivered his baby. She knew no borders. Just like the orangutans that rummage in these forests, they don't know whether it's cocoa, oil palm or langsat. They just go in. They knew nothing about political boundary. It is their home. It is with this hope and aspiration, someday that a person might say this is where I belong..

I wrote a poem for my mother.. I couldn't remember what it was. I gave it to Mandy. She wanted it soo much. I was sitting near the door where it opens up to a view of the Kerabau and egrets. They looked so peaceful there with the marshes and soggy soil. They belong there. It suddenly occured to me how my mother protects me like how these creatures interact. They need one another. And they co-exist beautifully.

Sometimes I asked myself, what do I mean to my mother? A mother never leaves you. My mother went to Saudi to find money. I'm not working at the moment and I'm jobless. But I try myself to do all I can to have a life worth spending. It's like air. All our days are used up to slog and find money. But is it worth it, going to school and then go picnicking. But so far as I remember, there isn't a single time that I've regretted without the feeling of satisfaction in my brow. We have all forgotten. But never forsaken.

How is my life like in the kampong? Well, I enjoyed walking home from school everday and masticate at the wonders of nature. See how it flourish, and enjoy the wind at my face as the wind blow following the arch of the river. I enjoyed the rain that drench me sometimes in the evening when I didn't bring my umbrella. This had been my footstool to consider the joy of nature. And to respect it. My mother spent less on herself and more to us as a child so then when we grow up we will get educated. It is this hope that we see in the governance. But at the time being, what is there to offer when there is no job. There needs to be a cushion effect. We didn't live in slumbers or stilts. And there many fishes in the sea pointless to say. But because we have a community, that was what how we survived. We helped each other. And we needed to grow. But to the point of no growth this can be dangerous. That is why the economy needs a buffering system and I propose the need for sustainability and networking.

Yay, my mom's coming back soon. And hopefully we can celebrate again as a family. Because it is with family that we find happiness not gold that we can't eat. But to see a privilege that is in unity and respect and simple adoration of nature that was once taught by my friend. A simple exchange of gesture was the billingual thought of culture and the evolution of thyroid glands. So are we human, or are we dancers? That is the question. As a matter of fact, we find our roots and we will find trust. But put it simply, we are just humans.. The dance is not far different than the dancer. Eloquently said.. Ok!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Nagasaki..

What did I do this morning? Went to have breakfast with my sis and her kid at Penampang Baru. For a traveler and someone brokeless like me, this is a sure place to be. I made a comment on my Facebook on what dish to serve the poor and this is what I had. Porridge with Century eggs in it, Corn soup and raddish. It's a good mix. If we could only ask these countries to help the third world in lending a hand on those impoverished States, I'm sure this world would be a better place. And if we could propose agriculture in areas constricted to dessertification, I'm sure soil conservation can be introduced. Which reminds me again, of India.. They have adequate knowledge on this sector and perhaps in coming to light of the problem in Africa and what S. Africa can do. Perhaps there can be a merge of technology and science. But the finance has got to come from Great Britain, America and China.

There is another thing astounding about the Indian culture. And how about do they understand about the fussion between a mother and her offspring. Maharani.. And that milk is considered precious from the suckling cow. I think civilization has come and go with the selection of desired traits in the community of duchess and queens for the preservation of the human kind or so. This is a civilization that is made of archers and swordsman and perhaps they have ways of cultivating this highly aspirational tool for the root of a monarchy. As the jewel is highly treasured, so does civic within the society as established tenderly as that of a mother bond and the child.

There's another place to dine in which I find measurable. And that is in Wagamama at Lintas. Ask for Furai set, it's seafood fried with bread crumbs. It's good to eat with plenty of salad cream and it cost only RM 18.90. That's because it's plenty full and dessert is served. Which reminds me of the Japanese people. These people are highly curteous. And they are many of them studying chimpanzees in Africa. They are also well known here for their charity and organised programmes for research. But I think the best way to do, is to establish contact with the Afrikaans so that other places like Malaysia might follow suit. Well done! They have certainly opened the gates in the quest of finding Paradise and maintaining governance. That's how the world revolves around. You scratch my back, I scratch yours. Yes. With the aid from the Scotland bank, developing countries can now help under-developed countries. And we learn the trade.

Burger King serves the best French Chicken ever. Well at least, the first good taste I had that lasts long was last night. I love mushrooms but I can't eat it with beef. As I am allergic to beef, I think. McDonald is said to play a major part in destroying the Amazons for cattle raising. But I think this exploit can be reduced, if we further serve in-hand that the industry realise what it can do to poverty. If they can exercise a monetary found to feed the hungry, I'm sure the industry can further be exploited to gain more revenues and profit for it's own subsidiary.


For slightly priced delicacy.. I suggest Bryani rice from Imperial Hotel, Warisan Square.

I'm just saying this, because they're really good! Check it out!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Help

I was just guessing.. Number and figures.. How can you calculate emotions.. My supervisor once said to me, you know.. The feeling.. Does she mean to rely solely on what I felt around me. To weigh in on the subjectives? I've thought a lot on this subject. And I think maybe she was referring to what can one see when someone is suffering. I think there must be a distinction between suffering and pain. In that when in suffering, you can perhaps find a remedy. But what about pain? It's like shooting an animal dead because he's not worth living or "to ease the pain". However, we may be content in finding or looking a person in such agony that provokes us to help. "I see you".. At last help is conceited!

Now comes into figuring emotions.. This was my famous attempt in designing a method of justifying the sociality of orangutans. My boss said look into the bond between a mother orangutan and her baby. And I'm sure you can find play. Perhaps the baby orangutan learns lots from play. This is social interaction. I've succeeded in coining interaction, and association (contact). But from a formula that came from the study of birds, I saw that there was justice and order in the system that made me calculate aggresion, look into social justice and dominance.

The review of social interaction in the ground made you have assumptions but by examining it, made you conclude to other critical thinking that involves a wider scope of inhibition in their nature and constructive models that evolves from pre-conditions.

The social system has been established and it takes a longer time to be re-constituted. Genes directly continues from patriarch to it's decendents to avoid in-breeding. But if the time is not right, you might disconnect this linkage.

The orangutans are intelligent. I once encountered a big male that counted up to 10x. He must've came about this master skills from his fingers. Or to establish contact. I refuse to believe in exaggeration of dominance. Because all beings share the equal surmount of compassion. As in feeding and security. So look at a chimp in the eye and what do you see.

Once when I was at the Sepilok's quarantine centre. Thanks to Dr. Sen approval. I went to watch baby orangutans rummage on some sugar canes. I held my fingers closely to them. And then they began nimbling gently, exploring. Orangutans are gentle creatures. They could've bit off my hands but instead what they showed, was caress.

And yes, orangutans are really shy creatures. I was with Zul and we were trekking for orangutans. I used my nose to smell them. And found out that they were many feeding on a food patch. Suddenly I heard a branch broke. I haste to see. There, was Maria, a female orangutan. We followed her.. And then, came an adult male by the name Yan. He was certainly persuasive when it comes to mating. They copulated many times in the nest that she built. But she kept on eyeing on the observers below. While at it, covering her body as could be possible and squatting as low possible into the nest. It was the first time, I had a great clear view on orangutans in the forest as they were high up on the trees. How do I know she shyed away was because she was playing hard to get. What do I mean on this, based on records, minute counts, she ran away avoiding the pursuer and then try to coax her way out of the relationship. Matings in orangutans are complex. You never know if she was consent. But put in other words, orangutans had no choice since they always meet up in the forest. And males are highly esteemed. However, they have beautiful ways to gain tolerance and order. Maybe not justice. But that's another story to tell..

Kidding! Well I found that there are least sexual harassments but whom I am to know when I am only an observer. I could say she wants it because they've copulated but from the number of times they do makes me an analyst! Haha.. Gotcha! And of course, there is an explanation to everything. These males are afraid of the residential male. And I mean as in the alpha male. Not telling you more. This is nature, I have to say. The inquisite mormon of nature. They have ways to regulate themselves and strike order. And in that way, entice compassion in that aggression is consoled to snarling and brandishing..

The tribal people only go to war because we taught them how to.. Notwithstanding!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Light giver


From soil conservation to energy - I think all has been said and done. Which comes to my annecdote to I dreamt of Africa.. I watched this movie and read the book and I wished to go to Africa too soon I hope. Within watchful eyes, anything can penetrate into the jungles of Africa far surpassing guerrillas and diamonds in Kenya. I think maybe given a chance, the people might fare well if given a place to hope within the bossom of South Africa. I met a guy once, and he was handsome. He spoke of the place too much. But I was sad why wasn't the government expand it's zealousness at the outreach. India, Africa it's all the same. Maybe we could inherit the throne one day. Of that jewel that we've lost but not the heart that escaped the many.

It's empowering this state of confusion. It's frantic. Needless, to say, everyone is chasing for the golden goose and the silver spoon. But what we got here is a redeem for us all. I am quite chastened that primatology doesn't become as a setback to us as we are re-discovering the primitive form. But to have been in the field, I am essentially trained the required skills to survive in the wild. Literally, to take down observations and make a report out of it! Haha.. But yes, you sanctify this privilege and delude all doctrine. You must and must salvage your freedom. I was abandoned. I was alone, but nothing gave me right in my plight as to follow the light. And of course, give path.

I started my way in soil conservation and I think that fragmentation is a mediocre not only for orangutans but also the economy. So I propose this, soil conservation. Maybe Africa might stand a chance in growing agriculture. Who knows?

Primatology gave a right to other disciplines that studies apes including Australopithecines. But we were down right at the ground watching live primates, dangling, masticating, the extant of the species. Being in the ground, you are pledged to counter evil at all cost. Kinda contradictory as you begin to study a descendent of the species of Sivapithecus or the red devil. Yes, this is what sets us apart from everyone else. You begin to guard your possession as though it belongs to only you! Boy, does everyone wants to learn from me. Well, it's pay back time. And I think you get just what you deserve. Take some and leave some for the generation that is what is in my mind. Hehe.. It's judicially justified taking it from a professional point of view. Ground truthing.

Now comes to other equations: Biology + Primatology + Anthropology = Economics + Mathematics + Computer Science. Whatever happens to Alchemy. This is my foremost favourite subject as I was enthralled to the world of minerals. Everything was there. All I should do was question the use of Cervus. That's computer science. Prospect a mathematical model, that's maths. Discussed speciation. And debated the use of generic Silicon. But my most kept feat is Anthropology and Primatology. I think my method should be a summary of it all that's what's was done.